Yeah, bitch. (1)

Lately I've been getting lost in life. I work to be ten steps ahead only to reach five of those before I  fall back to two steps behind. This year was going to be the year of positive change. I started so over the top convinced that I could make so many things happen for myself that by the time the year ended, I could sit back, exhale and say "Yeah bitch... You did it." Like this blog. On December 31st, I was DETERMINED to sit my ass here at this screen EVERY DAY even if just for a few minutes to write about my day. That's it! Nothing crazy, nothing hard and I'm HERE ANYWAY! And still.... nope. The diet. SO revved up about that. Ready to close the chapter and blow people away and shut them the hell up. Yeah... Lasted ABOUT four months and then... poof. I had a system with so many extensions... Then they started to disappear. To disintegrate into nothing. Then I reverted back to bad habits and became pissed at myself for dropping the ball. Had I stuck with it, my GOD what a difference I would see.. Then thinking like THAT makes me feel horrible. Jobs.. That's a weird one too if I do say so myself... I still do my photography when I have the time and sitter and I've even taken on the role of being a virtual assistant. Yeah. We'll save that story for some other time.. Where I live.. It's like a fucking high school and if it were up to me, the prom queen wannabe would just choke and disappear already. (That will also have to wait.. lol interesting and irritating as fuck all at the same time..) Yeah.. people are ridiculous. The school year is almost over, it's already hot as Hell outside, it's almost time to see my family and in-laws. I really wish I could have a selection of filters to use in the real world. Just a quick screen to step into to make everything seem picture perfect. Sadly though, it's not a possible thing. (YET). Aye, aye, aye.. I know, "SO MANY PROBLEMS!"
I really want the summer to just fucking fly. Bring on the fall! Dead leaves, Halloween, cool breezes, pumpkin everything...  But no.. For the next two weeks, I'm going to be.. enslaved. The last chance to buckle down in hopes of shutting down any bad thoughts or vibes others want to cast in my direction. I don't need luck. I don't need a miracle. I just need to focus on being the one to say "Yeah bitch... You did it." We'll start with the next two weeks and by the end of the year, I'm determined to have a "YEAH BITCH!" party.. Also, another time... ;)    Thanks for soaking up the madness that is this puddle of problems. LOVE YA!

-SuperMom