Stupid F-ing Dreams!

Have you ever had a bad dream, I mean a REALLY bad dream, about someone and then wake up ACTUALLY pissed at that person? Even though the smallest lines in your mind clearly say "Hey dumbass, it was a DREAM!" there is still that cloud that leaves the rest of your being thinking "You son of a bitch..." It's a horrible thing and as sad as it is, it's happened to me quite a few times over time. I don't know what it is... The fact that something horrible is happening, the person doing the horrible thing is someone close to me OR the fact that they're acting all innocent when we're both awake. All points of that horrid triangle are rough. I've talked to friends and asked this same question and of course, thankfully, they know what I'm talking about. I happened to be what some call a "vivid or lucid dreamer". This is when someone having a dream KNOWS they're having a dream but still can FEEL like it's something actually happening. I, like many others, have both good and horrible sides to this unconscious realm.. On one side, I could be on a beach having a cold drink of anything with an umbrella and feel like the sun is warming my skin or burning my eyes. On the other... I could be walking into some abandoned hospital trying to find something and instead get over powered by a psychotic squatter who wants nothing more than to defile me every way he could. Those are the kinds where I wake up sweating and definitely keep glancing behind me if I go to the bathroom. Of course then my mind starts to manifest such horrors in my ACTUAL house in the middle of the night in the dark. Go figure. Even a day dream can make me stare hard at a dark spot somewhere and start to see a figure outline... I swear I'm not on ANYTHING! I'm just semi crazy. Maybe mostly..? Anyway.. For the horror dreams like that, if I get to an uncomfortable spot and wake up, SOME TIMES I am lucky enough to fall BACK into the same dream and see it again. I know, why would I want to do that? Well... I didn't say it would be the same outcome.. If I'm really worked up enough, I can actually go back and do things differently or the RIGHT way. For example... Let's say me walking in the hospital and turning left down the hall led me to the psycho.. In the second loop, I would either change directions altogether or find something and beat his ass since I know where he's coming from. More times than not it's the last option because let's be honest, I'm still pissed at the first go round. So on good, or should I say bad nights, some times I get to restart. Not the case last night sadly. I mean of all KINDS of dreams, I really hate these ones the most. I don't want to get into the ACTUAL dream itself just the outcome I guess. Of course it happened around 2am (when I have plenty of time to lay there and think about it or try to sleep and hope it's NOT a repeat..) and it felt like it went on FOREVER. I was mad at this person when I woke up... It even made me mad knowing that while I was there over heating and debating whether or not to fall back asleep, they were somewhere sleeping like a baby no doubt. Then I was just STUCK with it playing in a ragged loop at random times in my head all freaking day. The faces burned into my mind... Making me do every thing with a little extra force just because in my warped mind, the dream people would feel it. Pretty much driving myself crazy. Finally I blurted a round about statement that of course didn't make any damn sense to the person and I ended up apologizing for the mean girl getting the better of me. I HATE THAT! People tell me so many things that "play a part" in my crazy ass dreams. "Go to bed earlier", "Don't eat at night", "Don't drink anything", "Don't watch your scary ass movies" and so on..... Yeah well... I'm pretty sure that even if I ate dinner at 4pm with a small glass of water and go to bed at 7 after watching a Disney movie there would still be a decent chance that SOMETHING would invade my dream land. I should really just start writing them all down.... YIKES! I can honestly say that NOW I feel better about this whole blah night. I'm not worried about sleeping tonight. :) Thanks for letting me vent to you! Again..... Scarily yours... -Super Mom

PS.. I cried watching a stupid chick flick with my daughters today... They said I was nuts... They may say the darnedest things but they pretty much have me pegged..... :/